HWAITINGGGGG!!!

So I was on Facebook today and stumled upon this hate page which is about Filipino fans liking Korean Pop and not being able to understand it. When I checked the page, the content pissed me off automatically, me being a Korean Pop fan. They lambasted, insulted, bashed, mocked, and fucked around with the music itself and our idols (girl groups and boy groups). Me and my friends were really pissed off. How could someone so narrow minded and ignorant create such a fanpage!?

Alright, so you can't please everybody. That's extremely undestood and should stand as one of the general and golden rules of life. But if you're gonna go as far as insulting something that you aren't fond of, especially insulting meaning you're not gonna be saying it in a nice way that is, you're harboring a lot of enemies, namely from the subject's fanbase. Another thing they're missing is respect. Goddammit I've been searching for that thing and I still haven't found it. Respect. I have some friends who aren't into Korean music but they don't insult it. They don't bash it. And most importantly, they don't insult me for listening to it. So who gave you the right to do so?!

The page clearly emphasized our not being able to comprehend or understand the lyrics of the song. So is that an acceptable reason as to why we should not listen to their music? Why? There are some English songs wherein you don't know what the song means either, right? So does that mean you still aren't allowed to listen to it. In fact, I did some comparisons and I found out that there are some Korean songs that when translated into English made more sense than English songs which are just a bunch of words piled up to form something they would like to call a 'song'. Besides, with the youth's music enthusiasm today, I don't think the message would matter that much anymore. Now I'm not racist (the fanpage is though), but what they're promoting is nothing but crap. Imagine kinda like stopping you from listening to something you like, just because you aren't able to understand it. How pathetic and how lame.

Not meaning to promote hate but they've been saying really loathful words which are really killjoy in my and our opinion. Like I've said, we can understand if you don't like Kpop. We're not forcing you to like it. We're not forcing you to be fans like us. However, please give respect cause we respect and never bashed your likes or your favorites.

Things I've Learned

So another school year has ended right? So I've had some good and bad experiences however, despite having and bringing me different moods, they have a common denominator, that being these experiences serve as lessons to me. They help mold me into a better, more mature person. They can help make me a stronger person who is ready to face any adversary that comes my way.

MY 20 GOLDEN RULES IN LIFE:

1. You don't have to be aggressive to prove to everyone that you're a strong person.
2. Always stand for what you believe in. No matter how bad or sour the situation is, always hold your head up high with pride and fight back.
3. I'm a firm believer in non-violent wars. Just by hitting back at them with the right words, you can win the language war.
4. Do not think that reporting offenses to the proper school authorities is wrong. Especially if that wrong thing is aimed at you. Think of it as life. When a crime against you has been committed, will you not tell the police 'cause you're thinking it's something a weak person would do? Of course not. There are times wherein we should defend ourselves and yet there are times wherein we really need help. It's just a matter of us figuring out when.
5. If you don't like something about a person or you don't like the way a person behaves towards you, just tell them in a nice way. Like I said in number 1, aggression is not always the answer. The more aggressive you are, the less likely they are to respect you.
6. If a friend treats you like shit, treat them like fuck! They don't deserve to be treated nicely by you despite you being treated like horse crap by them.
7. Be uninhibited and friendly. Be open to all people from all walks of life and learn to respect them.
8. Don't be afraid to make noise. Who cares if they think you're weird?! It's your life and not theirs so they don't have the right to say anything.
9. Jealousy is something we cannot avoid. Everyone gets jealous or envious every once in a while but in that sense, we should not do harm to others just because we're jealous of them. Instead, work harder to prove to everyone that you're just as good or even better than that person you're jealous of. Prove to them that he/she is parallelable.
10. Sure, everyone's entitled to their own opinions. After all, freedom of speech is a right that no one can ever take away from us. However, be reminded to watch your words. There are some words which may be offensive for others so better be careful.
11. When you need something, when you want something, go for it.
12. Avoid procrastinating. Procrastination often gets you nowhere. If you can do it now or earlier, the better.
13. Don't think that if somebody offended you in a slight manner, it's okay to let it slide. No. Any form of offense is not okay to set aside. Don't hinder yourself from reporting them to the authorities just because you're afraid to be called a "tell-tale" . Again, a call back on the previous number. Sure, let's say it's a pretty simple and shallow incident but think about it? If you're not gonna let anyone know, they're [bullies] going to think it's okay and they're gonna keep doing it. Are you going to wait for them to throw you down the stairs before you finally tell someone?
14. Don't ask for help unless you really need it. If you can figure things out on your own, do so. But if you're really hopeless and going nowhere, that's when you ask for assistance.
15. Dare to be different. Just because the entire class goes to Starbucks and the mall doesn't mean you have to ride along so you wouldn't be called a killjoy. If it's not your thing then don't go. Live your own life for you.
16. No one can love you more than God and your parents.
17. It's good to have friends. However, they don't have to know everything about you. Leave some for yourself.
18. Relationships aren't healthy at this stage of life. Save yourself for your future.
19. Smile. It takes away your pain and it gives your friends the impression that everything's okay, thus stopping them from asking any questions that you don't want to answer.
20. Be yourself. It's the diamond rule of life.

Why Are There Times When...

Why are there times wherein I feel so alone. I feel so depressed and I feel so...heartbroken. Considering the fact that I don't have problems of any kind. Self-conflict is one, maybe because I'm still trying to search for myself not physically but emotionally. Sure, I'm emotionally stable but there are some times...Some times....

Okay, enough of my drama. I'm gonna go straight to the point. I don't have a 'best friend'. Whoever thinks I do is a real idiot and should go straight to hell. Kidding aside, I really think my friend is boring. Honestly, I do. Even my other friends think so too! Imagine, we would sit together and talk limitly or worse, sometimes we would just sit and not talk at all. When we're with the others, the others and I would laugh so hard, would yell so loudly, would walk so flirty and she would just tag along behind us like a nun watching after a group of rowdy kids. And whenever we tell her jokes, she wouldn't laugh rather give us a pokerface which pisses us off secretly.

BOTTOMLINE IS: I'm not your best friend, whoever you are. I'm just someone you can call your casual companion. If I didn't do what I did last time, I really shouldn't and wouldn't be hanging out with you. You're not my ideal friend although the time we've WASTED together is considerably plenty!

So Everyone's Having A Rough Day

Why is everyone having a rough day today? Including me!!! Why is that so?! I'm so irritable today! Maybe it has something to do with my menstruation...after all it is my time of the month. Aside from throwing up violently last Wednesday, my PMS has left me so washed up and wasted. I can't believe it myself!

Not just me, even my friends are having a bad day! First, my friend got into a sticky situation with her groupmates in Filipino. Here's the story. My friend's supposed to go on a trip with her family to some place tomorrow. Problem is, they needed to practice for the Filipino activity which is to be presented on Monday. Therefore, she cannot attend the practice because of their trip. When she told this to the group leader and the sub leader, they were undoubtedly pissed. Knowing this, they threatened to expel her from the group, even stating that she arrives late and leaves early during practices. But she knew better! She comes and leaves on time! What gave those girls the right to say those things toward her. So recess came and she was feeling her lowest. I tried to NOT COMFORT rather advice and scold her about what she should have done.

Following that, the leader of the said group told her that she would just be relocated to the props department. That was a relief...after a few hours later after their practice! The leader approached her again and begged her to attend the practice on Saturday but after saying that she really couldn't, she faced expulsion from the group. Towards the end of the day, the teacher called for her and told her that she would just be in the props department. Now that was a relief...for her.

Only a Few More Days To Go and it's Summer!!!!

Oh My God! I so can't believe that school's almost coming to an end. I honestly find it hard to believe that right now is the third trimester, March 2 namely, whereas it seems like just yesterday we were third year students ready to begin a new life...and now we're on our way to becoming senior pupils! God, time does fly fast.

So in retrospect, I'd like to highlight some of the memorable events, songs, people, and more during each time. Let's start with the first trimester....

FIRST TRIMESTER: JULY-AUGUST

First trimester, what can I say? New school year, new opportunities. Here's a list of what has happened during that significant time.

• 
  
  First day of school


• 
  
  Obsession with Korean pop and Korean stuff


• 
  
  Nick Stahl, Ron Howard, Colin and Tom Hanks fandom!!!! (yes...)


• 
  
  I started to dance...(Korean pop taught me how to appreciate dance)


• 
  
  I became more confident


• 
  
  I joined Mosaic and made new friends


• 
  
  For the first time in history, a girl who's known to be quiet and reserved joined the SEB and ran for Assistant Secretary. Fortunately enough, she won.


• 
  
  Super Junior obsession


• 
  
  Sin City obsession


• 
  
  Sori's "Real Lips"


• 
  
  Lady Gaga's "Paparazzi"


• 
  
  Beyonce's "Sweet Dreams"


• 
  
  I started planning my Dystopia novel


• 
  
  My classmates came to know me as the dancer, the writer, the speaker, and the officer. I was a shitload of identities.


• 
  
  Alyanna left. Do I need to explain?!


• 
  
  SNSD hater days...(hahahha. I actually find it funny now..)

SECOND TRIMESTER

The Second Trimester was full of doubts for me. I have to say that this trimester is indeed my darkest hour. This list will tell you why.

• 
  
  I started to lose confidence...Well not totally lose but somehow I withdrew a bit because of rumours I would hear about me.


• 
  
  My swagger crashed!!!! And it reached the lowest part of me.


• 
  
  SEB Leadership Training...at least this is fun


• 
  
  An old sin of mine was dug up and found out. It cost me my reputation and their trust. Shit man.


• 
  
  The Halloween party. I danced Genie.


• 
  
  UN Day...we danced.


• 
  
  It's the trimester that I became known as a dancer. SO known that my real talent was almost forgotten. Luckily it isn't yet.


• 
  
  DramaFest Preparations. I was assigned to work on the flyers alongside three other juniors. We fell apart because I refused to comply to their wishes...I complied in the end.


• 
  
  I went to Ren's house for the first time. Danced Genie in costume with a police hat. Oh yeah.


• 
  
  Library Visit! God, need I say more?


• 
  
  SS501's "A Song Calling For You"


• 
  
  Kara's "Mister"


• 
  
  SNSD's "Genie"


• 
  
  I had the opportunity to reunite and chat with Luna...hahah...


• 
  
  The DramaFest proper...yeah. We won! We're great, you know!


• 
  
  The SEB, EOs, and NVIROE members' Eco Trip...


• 
  
  G-Dragon's "Butterfly'


• 
  
  Lee Hyori's 'U-Go-Girl'


• 
  
  Lady Gaga's 'Bad Romance'


• 
  
  I started to fall in love with _________________. [Mister Genie]


• 
  
  Sandara Park's 'Kiss'


• 
  
  The finishing of my novel 'Dystopia'


• 
  
  CHRISTMAS PARTY


• 
  
  Went to Ren's house---AGAIN!!!!!!!

THIRD TRIMESTER

God, it's the end. Although I wouldn't say that 3rd year is MY best year, I'm gonna miss the memories I had with my friends OUTSIDE of our class.

• 
  
  SNSD's 'Kissing You'


• 
  
  Friendship with Gee, Camille, and Jenny


• 
  
  Still loving Mr. Genie


• 
  
  Aegyo and Ulzzang obsession

This list can go on forever....I don't think this blog can contain it, though.

Okay, I know I had some rough and tough times this year, but hey, good or bad it still makes a memory. Whatever it is, it'll always be memorable for me. Let the good times roll and as for the bad times, let these serve as a lesson in order to mold a more mature, more understanding, and more empathic person out of me.

Gomawu Miwoso!

In translation: Thank You. I hate you.

I'd like to keep this blog relatively short because I just posted something today. This is a brief follow up to my recent post.

Dear Mister Genie.

Thanks so much. You have been a really nice friend. Not only did you tease me before, you even snobbed me twice. Also, you were very sarcastic to me only to ask me out to be your date a few months later. Well what do you call that? I remembered when you asked me out to the prom and I said yes yet it didn't push through because I already had a forced date. Sucks, doesn't it? Then what happened now? You asked me out, right? What if I didn't have a forced date then?! And we were officially "partners"? You were even snobbing me during the prom, what's your problem?! You didn't even approach me to say hi. Oh so this is what it's gonna be had we been dates?! You would still look at your crush and you'd give me little importance is that it? Yeah. I guess that's it. Then I found out later on that I'm just "the next best thing" or "second best." Man, I'm not a spare tire that you just drag around whenever your best wheels get busted out! Meaning you only resorted to me because you were too shy to ask her out? Too shy...haha. Have some balls, dude. I have more balls than you. Grow up...

Your "prend"

You know who I am so don't go around asking everyone who the fuck this is.

In Retrospect

3rd Year. Often called the hardest level of high school, attributed to added subjects, new people, new challenges, more activites, etc. But to me, being a 3rd Year student meant reinventing yourself in a positive manner. So allow this somewhat lengthy blog post to give you more than a glimpse of my 3rd year life.

During the first day of classes, I wasn't nervous as at all. Why would I?! I've been studying in the same school for more than 5 years. I have assured myself that everything would be the same just as before. Nothing ever changes in our school though. But there is one thing that I told myself I would change, that is me. I promised myself that I would be a more confident person, a bolder young lady, a sturdier person. And upon entering that classroom, I told myself that this is a promise that I'm damn sure to keep. So I began making new friends, exhibiting my talents whenever there are given opportunities, and went as far as running for Student Executive Board,eventually winning the position of Assistant Secretary. All of these made me happy. For the first trimester, I would say that the promise I made is a promise well kept.

Until the second trimester...the second trimester was chock-filled with disaster both academically and personally. During the first few days of the second tri, I was still somewhat confident and bold. I could say what I want and do what I want. However, when news got to me that there were people from both my section and from the other section. When my friend told me about this, it scarred me deeply and made me want to withdraw from all forms of human contact for a while. I couldn't believe it then...I have done nothing wrong to them and they have treated me this way. I started to...not cry but rather give some space. I didn't communicate with anyone for quite some time and focused on myself first. I was giving too much, taking too little, and not thinking at all. And as if the batch's scrutiny wasn't enough, an old mistake of mine resurfaced and was found out by my other classmates, therefore ruining my reputation. For me, the issue is too sensitive and should therefore not be discussed here. September-October were my worst months...until the near-end of October during the UN Week celebration. Everything was cool with me and that group of friends whom I had a misunderstanding with, and our Brazil Samba Dance was up for the UN Week. And it was during this time..the very night of the celebration, that the Halloween Party was to be held. And it was also during the same Halloween Party that I danced Genie by Girls'Generation with my friend Makee. Over the course of three trimesters, so much has happened. My life became a roller coaster when it was just a carousel before.

To make this entry shorter, I did alot of things. Alot of things have been done. There were some things I did that I wish I could do again while there are also some things that I regret doing and couldn't even bring myself to think of. My life is a concrete example of what humans are. We do good things and get praised, we do bad things and get lambasted for it. No, we cannot go back and do things over again but we can change ourselves now. We can learn from these experiences and mature. Mature and prove to everyone that we have enough knowledge of what is wrong and right and thus guiding us into the rightful path. With solid, overflowing faith in God and in ourselves, we can do most anything...

Not to be religious but this may be the most awe-inspiring and beautiful quote from the Bible:

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"

-Philippians 4:13.