Monday, October 19, 2009

Clearing the air.

It's been a really long time since I posted something here. Actually, the post I'm about to make right now is a very regretful and apologetic one which is in line with an incident involving me and two of my dear classmates earlier. So here I am to clear the air:
Honestly, I believe that I am truly at fault here. The reason why I posted offensive blogposts towards one of them three years ago is because I judged way to soon. I never even gave that person a chance to show her true personality to me. I judged her based on how she looks and for that I am in deep regret. To the other one, yes we were close but maybe I became too cranky with her at one point and thought of doing this.
Though you may not feel it, I am indeed in deep regret of what I did. It hurts me just as much as it hurts you. In case you're wondering, I am no longer angry or I don't hold any grudges with both of you. Though we're not close, I still love you as my classmates. I'll always know what I did and I know I cannot do anything to redo what has been done, it has been inked on with time. This apologetic post is the best I can do to at least alleviate. I also want to have you know that I no longer do this. To clear the air once more, the reason I did this is because, like I said, I may have held grudges brought about by wrong judgement towards you yet I don't have the courage that I have today to say it to you face-to-face. I am remorseful for what I have done. This really shames me as much as it surprises and scars you.
To those that I have hurt, I have wish nothing ill towards you, I don't hate you but if you are angry at me, then that is something that is beyond my control. I will accept. I cannot delete for the password went buried with time. This is all just a misunderstanding and I have no intention of hurting or smearing your good names.
I am deeply sorry. I know what I did and thank you for informing me. This incident serves as a lesson to me and hopefully it will help build a more mature and responsible person out of me.
*~Pauleen :)